While I've thought that I have looked at all of my 'stuff' in a space of awareness, I haven't considered any of my repeating behaviors in this way. The questions to consider portion of your post is particularly helpful and will provide a lot to journal about. Thank you!
I know what my yearning is: for connection. What I can't seem to get past is the unconscious repetition of connection-seeking behaviours that never reach completion. Recognizing my soul's need to connect hasn't unlocked any insight regarding how to approach it in a more balanced way.
Perhaps there is another layer to this, something mixed with the yearning for connection. I would look specifically towards any other patterns you notice. Do you seem to connect to a certain type of person? Do the relationships usually play out in similar ways? If so, what may be the yearning at the center of that pattern?
Oh, I'm not actually managing to build any stable connections. Dating attempts last a few dates at best before I lose my will to tolerate someone I'm finding I don't actually like that much. I keep trying to do dreamwork with people but one of them just tried to steer it towards sex, another one got scared off, another unconsciously led me in circles (he'd converted to Christianity since and was only doing it to humor me). I try to connect specifically over soul work/creativity but other people have different priorities. I can't tell whether it's just a numbers game and I'm not finding the right people, or if it's the fault of my unconscious patterns.
Sometimes it is hard to discern what the source of issue is. At times like that, I try to turn towards greater wisdom that is found outside of ego's sphere of understanding (as that is often limited). For me, that might mean incubating a dream, doing a tarot reading, an active imagination, etc on the topic. Perhaps something like that may help you in getting some clarity?
The 7 stones is really striking, wow. The circle of healing stones...it makes me wonder about the inner container, temenos that may be establishing (or is established?).
Perhaps drawing a third card, one for the bridge between card 1 and 2, would offer some further guidance. I would also consider a dream incubation.
The 9 of Swords has always felt like a direct confrontation. Where the 8 of Swords tasks us to recognize what is limiting, hidden, and concealed, the 9 is the meeting.
It makes me wonder what haunts you in the middle of the night, the presence that feels haunting in the psyche. How can it be met more fully?
On a personal note, this card has followed me around for years and came to be my reminder of difficult symptoms, what they represent at the core, and how I can lean in rather than recoil.
Taken sequentially, perhaps this means you are getting close to the 10 of swords, which brings reconciliation and integration (although through a painful reckoning).
While I've thought that I have looked at all of my 'stuff' in a space of awareness, I haven't considered any of my repeating behaviors in this way. The questions to consider portion of your post is particularly helpful and will provide a lot to journal about. Thank you!
You're welcome, glad you found it helpful :)
I know what my yearning is: for connection. What I can't seem to get past is the unconscious repetition of connection-seeking behaviours that never reach completion. Recognizing my soul's need to connect hasn't unlocked any insight regarding how to approach it in a more balanced way.
Perhaps there is another layer to this, something mixed with the yearning for connection. I would look specifically towards any other patterns you notice. Do you seem to connect to a certain type of person? Do the relationships usually play out in similar ways? If so, what may be the yearning at the center of that pattern?
Oh, I'm not actually managing to build any stable connections. Dating attempts last a few dates at best before I lose my will to tolerate someone I'm finding I don't actually like that much. I keep trying to do dreamwork with people but one of them just tried to steer it towards sex, another one got scared off, another unconsciously led me in circles (he'd converted to Christianity since and was only doing it to humor me). I try to connect specifically over soul work/creativity but other people have different priorities. I can't tell whether it's just a numbers game and I'm not finding the right people, or if it's the fault of my unconscious patterns.
Sometimes it is hard to discern what the source of issue is. At times like that, I try to turn towards greater wisdom that is found outside of ego's sphere of understanding (as that is often limited). For me, that might mean incubating a dream, doing a tarot reading, an active imagination, etc on the topic. Perhaps something like that may help you in getting some clarity?
Thank you. This one came at a most appropriate time. Synchronicity.
I'm glad to hear it, James. Synchronicity is another way the unconscious makes itself known.
The 7 stones is really striking, wow. The circle of healing stones...it makes me wonder about the inner container, temenos that may be establishing (or is established?).
Perhaps drawing a third card, one for the bridge between card 1 and 2, would offer some further guidance. I would also consider a dream incubation.
Feel free to report back if you’d like some considerations. I know drawing more concrete advice in those types of pulls can be tough :)
The 9 of Swords has always felt like a direct confrontation. Where the 8 of Swords tasks us to recognize what is limiting, hidden, and concealed, the 9 is the meeting.
It makes me wonder what haunts you in the middle of the night, the presence that feels haunting in the psyche. How can it be met more fully?
On a personal note, this card has followed me around for years and came to be my reminder of difficult symptoms, what they represent at the core, and how I can lean in rather than recoil.
Taken sequentially, perhaps this means you are getting close to the 10 of swords, which brings reconciliation and integration (although through a painful reckoning).