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Robin Rivers's avatar

I am constantly dreaming of packing up and moving. It has been a motif for years, one that I have never really been able to unpack the root of or understand much at all. It's never the same house. Some are places I recognize. Some are in locations I recognize or have lived, but one thing is consistent, I am always leaving and the packing isn't going well. I think I am just about done and then I open another drawer or closet and there is a bunch of crap that isn't even mine or there is something to repair that has been left unattended to the whole time we lived in the house. I am also always moving my family with me, and no one is helping me pack and get us ready to go. Some houses are also really disturbing, run down, terrifying shacks; most though are just random houses that it's time to leave.

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Alyssa Polizzi's avatar

I wonder what the theme of packing up and moving says about the house as a symbol for the psychological space you inhabit, a feeling of being "at home".

That it is recurring is important to note, as dream series often speak to dynamics that are ongoing, unresolved, being worked on. When they continue for so long, it often implies that something is yet unfinished.

I wonder if there has been attempts during these years to establish a change, movement, to head on to the next chapter (next house). This may subtle or more explicit psychological/emotional development. But each time it is thwarted by some kind of unfinished business. Things people have left behind (perhaps this symbolizes other people's stuff that you're carrying?) or something that needs tending to that you've been unaware of.

A transition is being blocked, and perhaps the key to making the full change comes from tending to the elements you notice (the repairs, the extra stuff).

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Robin Rivers's avatar

Now that I see this and continue to consider it all, I think that I have never really felt "at home" anywhere that I have lived IRL. I moved a lot in my 20s and immigrated to Canada in my 30s. I did so because my DH is Canadian, and we wanted to raise children here. But, Vancouver isn't my home.

My childhood was very stable in terms of homes, but not family. I was forced out of my family home and that is what started my moving every 18 months or so in my 20s.

There is a lot of baggage with them and I have found myself very alone in the uncovering and sorting through process. Every time I think I am done, there is something more that no one remembered or I found something that wasn't ours but still needed tending too.

Thank you, there is so much here now, another closet to unpack and sort through, I suppose, but your insight did open a floodgate where I didn't see one on my own.

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Alyssa Polizzi's avatar

You're welcome, I'm glad the reflections helped provide insight. It makes sense these dreams have been recurring so long given your history. It's amazing how our dreams can clue us in to what is happening inwardly, even if we aren't fully aware of it consciously!

I hope the insights help to deepen your exploration on these topics :)

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