Hi Fiona, that's fascinating, I haven't met anyone else with a similar experience. Usually it's just a pure fear of spiders without a sense of its potential deeper psychological significance. How did you come to realize it was about fear of the feminine?
Just the other day, I was sitting next to the window in my living room. I looked out …
Hi Fiona, that's fascinating, I haven't met anyone else with a similar experience. Usually it's just a pure fear of spiders without a sense of its potential deeper psychological significance. How did you come to realize it was about fear of the feminine?
Just the other day, I was sitting next to the window in my living room. I looked out and noticed a large, dark spider spinning its web just on the other side. Usually I would recoil in fear and have a rather strong response. This time, I just watched the spider for a while. I felt a sense of fascination with its movements. It was a really interesting experience for me.
Hi Alyssa, it developed over time... first it was basically understanding a spider as an archetype for creativity. I was researching spirituality at the time for my msc and I came across the grandmother spider mythology which posits she spun the universe into existence and was responsible for life (creation myth effectively). This was all quite surface level until one morning I woke and there was an ENORMOUS jet black spider on the wall moving. It was like she was pulsing with life and potent in some way and suddenly I just got it .... a fear of the deep feminine is prevalent not just in me but across society... she is both alluring and dangerous simultaneously and we are scared of it in ourselves and others because it’s less controllable. It’s something I reflect on regularly and it’s still unraveling but it has made me tap into that aspect of myself more- wild woman archetype perhaps.
Interestingly I read Alex Beiner’s book the Bigger Picture before the holidays and he discusses how during one psychedelic experience - he encountered the ‘Spider Queen’ as he called her. He found her alluring and dangerous and the lesson she told him was he was afraid of aspects of the feminine. Obviously I was quite drawn to his description because it mirrored my own.
Very long answer I know but hope it is clear and helps! Let me know any questions :)
Hi Fiona, that's fascinating, I haven't met anyone else with a similar experience. Usually it's just a pure fear of spiders without a sense of its potential deeper psychological significance. How did you come to realize it was about fear of the feminine?
Just the other day, I was sitting next to the window in my living room. I looked out and noticed a large, dark spider spinning its web just on the other side. Usually I would recoil in fear and have a rather strong response. This time, I just watched the spider for a while. I felt a sense of fascination with its movements. It was a really interesting experience for me.
Hi Alyssa, it developed over time... first it was basically understanding a spider as an archetype for creativity. I was researching spirituality at the time for my msc and I came across the grandmother spider mythology which posits she spun the universe into existence and was responsible for life (creation myth effectively). This was all quite surface level until one morning I woke and there was an ENORMOUS jet black spider on the wall moving. It was like she was pulsing with life and potent in some way and suddenly I just got it .... a fear of the deep feminine is prevalent not just in me but across society... she is both alluring and dangerous simultaneously and we are scared of it in ourselves and others because it’s less controllable. It’s something I reflect on regularly and it’s still unraveling but it has made me tap into that aspect of myself more- wild woman archetype perhaps.
Interestingly I read Alex Beiner’s book the Bigger Picture before the holidays and he discusses how during one psychedelic experience - he encountered the ‘Spider Queen’ as he called her. He found her alluring and dangerous and the lesson she told him was he was afraid of aspects of the feminine. Obviously I was quite drawn to his description because it mirrored my own.
Very long answer I know but hope it is clear and helps! Let me know any questions :)